.......emomo

My eyes are swollen,
Some stupid liquid which known as tears keep flowing out from my eyes..

Am i sad?

my heart, has no feelings..

Its numb.

but I just cant control nor stop the tears from flowing out..

1 hour has passed..
I wonder when can it stop...

the pain that i feeling now is not on the wound, not on my swollen eyes,
its in my mind.
i'll never forget about it, only after the day when my heart has stop beating..

Geez. I love this!!

People that knows me well should know that i'm always lovin' stuffs that are pinky, white, or dreamy in colour.

sky. clouds that looks like cotton candy~

I'd love balloon and rainbow too!!

yummy yummy!!

Guess what?!

I found this!

and i'm so so so so so in love with it! but i cant use it!!

**crycry**

cause its a html skin, and i'm totally blank and empty of html knowledge~

dumb me.

我的第一份工作 + Milky小白

不知不觉地，我已在这办公室了带了将近三个月。。

啊啊啊!! 老板尽然在这个时候冲出来突击检查!!!

-------------赶快盖着盖着!!不要给他看到!!!!!!!!!---------------

这三个月过得好快哦，一眨眼的.. 就过了。。
比起其它的朋友，我这份工真的容易很多，
可以说是有钱拿的量地官！！
呵呵~^-^~

每天在office里msn,
写bulogu(blogging)，
得空便等朋友过来去mamak档吹吹水！！
得空就打打字...
虽然是没有speaker，
但还是爽的咧!!

又虽然每天一个人呆在office是闷了点！！
不过想一想，总比呆在家里生"冬菇"好吧！！
至少还有冷气吹吹。。

有时候我在想，
用华语来写部落格也挺不错的嘛！！
只是可能会对不起不会华语的朋友~
受华文教育的我，当然觉得华语更加能够表达自己的情绪，
但，你知道啦！华语字在电脑力超难打的。。
我的妈妈呀。。
打了老半天~才打到页！！
闷~

好期待驾着我的小白到处去~
哦!!对了!!
忘了跟你们介绍我的小白，她今年已经14-15岁了，
是我爸爸买给我的二手车，
她小小的，又是白色的所以叫小白!
虽然小白看起来有一点奶白 =.=" 但等妈咪赚到$一定会帮你粉刷新新哦!!
小白也应该有个英文名的，让我发挥我的母爱帮你取个西洋一点的名吧!!

唔唔唔唔~
就叫Milky!!
让我用英语大大声，正正式的宣布一下!

**cough cough cough**

I officially named my car as

Milky,小白！

P/s: I know it's weird and bintai to named my car, but then I just like it!!

The 100th post!!

Times flies!!

Here come the 100th post!!
Lets talk about "this" for this special post!!!!

!!!JOGOYA!!!

ah ha! ah ha!! ah ha ah ha ah ha jogoya!!

i just cant close my mouth everytime after i mention this word..



did i saying it again?



JOGOYA YA YA YA YA Ya aaaaa aaa aaa aaa!!

with an echo and my jaw is still dropping~ =.= i noe i'm a crazy girl^^V

such a luxurious restaurant!! I love~ coong, saw it? want anot??

haha,

let me show you something make u even more bentahan har..

the environment is nice, dark, romantic~~

Table for 2 = table for us!!!

baby!! saw?? its ur favourite unagi!! unlimited one~


and see this!!!!

unlimited SOFT SHELL CRAB!!!!

its your favourite!!!!!baby~

Sushi sushi sushi!!

Haagen-Dazs@@!! unlimited as well!!

i want to try every flavours!
wipe ur saliva first!! hee..

ur birthday here!! n i'll be the boss for U of the day!!

^^V

nah nah nah.. dont say i not love u lar~~ <33>

Congratulation to coong!!

**clap clap clap clap**

Muacks!!

Taniah kepada Encik Jeremy CCP!!

you've now officically a driver and my driver!!

~muahahahahaha~

dont give me the reason that you dont have car, cause you can drive mine!!

love you so muchie <33

爱情 vs. 婚姻

其实，到底么才是爱情？

有人说，
爱情是盲目的，
爱情是无法用语言来解释的，
爱情，是你情我愿的，
爱情让人有陶醉甚至飞上天的滋味，
也可以让你从高空瞬间坠落，生不如死。
种种说法，

但，爱情是可靠的吗？

又有谁能够解释，

到底，
婚姻又是怎么一回事呢?

难道，婚姻又是人们口中说的“爱情的坟墓”吗？


今天，他把我叫到了他的房里，
告诉了我，一个关于"他"和"她"的故事。
我知道"他们"是谁，但身为一名聆听者，
一些神秘感可以让述说的人讲得更加的自在，

他，把心里说有的委屈，说得彻彻底底...


我哭了，

他眼泛泪光。。不敢哭，
只有在我不注意时，用手指把在眼眶外打滚的泪滴擦掉。。

难道做一名好男人，真得那么难吗？
一个，
身上只有九百，也会把那九百块给完"她"去买一个"她"喜欢的名牌包，
出国公干，也会趁"她"睡觉时，在床头放一些钱好让"她"有个钱防身，
人在市中心开会，"她"的一通电话说要喝椰水，"他"便飞车回来买个"她"喝！
每天，无论身在何处都卖午餐给"她"。


做为一个男人，尊严"他"已放下了，
所有的苦，"他"都往心里吞，

"她"，何时又有明白过"他"的？


每一次的原谅，
都只会换来下一次的伤害，

在"她"眼中一个没见过面，认识了几个月的朋友，也比不上"他们"十年的感情。

同床异梦，


"他"心，已死，
挽留，是因为不想看"她"继续堕落下去，

纹身。夜店。外遇。男朋友。好朋友？骗局。爱慕虚荣。名牌。贪小便宜。
难道没有钱就不是好男人吗？


"她"又要等何时才能醒悟呢？
如果你真的真心爱一个人，你愿意看着他一次又一次地为你伤心，心碎吗？
"她"好自私!!!

你知道"他"现在在买着午餐给你吃吗？
无言。

Tears

bintai!!!

Never ever chat in the ICQ chat room!
There are so many pervert aka SEI BIN TAI LOU over there~
yucks~

That day I was like hand itchy then simply bumped into the ICQ chat room
and guess what?
There are sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo many perverts over there..
ewwwww~

I've chat with this dubai people, at first i tot "he" is a girl, but it turns out like that after i added him on MSN~
Here comes the conversation with this now only he's actually a 43 years old DUBAI bin tai lou~


\['(00)']/™ says:
told u b4
\['(00)']/™ says:
i'm 18

hanafi says:
u r mature now
hanafi says:
i want small
light i can carry on my chest
(monolog: he's as bintai as Michael Jackson!!)

\['(00)']/™ says:
ar =="
\['(00)']/™ says:
okayyyyyy
\['(00)']/™ says:
didnt know u have this kinda taste

hanafi says:
i'm 175 tall
weight 75 kilo
litle heavy for u

\['(00)']/™ says:
that alrite
\['(00)']/™ says:
my bf is abt that oso

then i suggested him that,
\['(00)']/™ says:
if u want small girl that can carry on shoulder

hanafi says:
i loke small when we swim i carrrry u on my arm and chest
( I was like What the hell!??? *tut*what is he talking about?!!)

\['(00)']/™ says:
then better find THAILAND girl

hanafi says:
yes

\['(00)']/™ says:
thats rite

hanafi says:
i want u

\['(00)']/™ says:
a!!!!????? apa?!
\['(00)']/™ says:
u pervert!!

hanafi says:
u have nice chest
(i was like sweat ==" first time chat with this kinda bintai lou)
hanafi says:
big chest i can see from your display picture
(its not at all dumb!!! and its not for you to see!!)

\['(00)']/™ says:
u r so pervertic
\['(00)']/™ says:
SAKAI!!!!!!!!
save it for yourself,
and guess what? the cow at your house has a big breast too,
and they have 4 nipples which is way better than mine!!!!

hanafi says:
what u mean

I was like #$%^&*(!?$%^&*
then! i blocked him!! taa daaa~
I'm safe!!
what a pervert!

Saturday!

LAMO

My blog is getting lamer, Lamer and LAMERRRR~
why?
Its because my life is just the same throughout this whole month!!!!

slp.wakeup.brushteeth.bath.work.brunch.msn.work.home.dinner.tv.phone.bed.slp.

I live like a waking corpse!!
and it goes round, marry go rounds and ROUNDS for the whole months!!!
I'm so going to wilt!!

luckily i can still can learn driving!! and talk on phone with my coong and sweetie~
sad to say that my home PC is burnt!!!
!$^#&$&*(*$>?+=^&
arhhh its driving me crazy~
that's the reason why I cant upload my pretty pictures on my blog,
i've been using my office PC to blog for soooooooooooooooo long~
This PC is so old until i cant find where's the place to stuck my pendrive~

OMG~

my life sucks~ hope college starts soon~
I need a LIFE to live on~

Sad to say, my diet plan didnt works, I stop slimming down after i loss 2kg of weight!
erhhhhh~
BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!! life!!
BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO you!! karyan!!!

SPM result!?

Sad to say, but i really think i did badly for it~
It might hurt me deeply~
how i wish it somebody would ter-burn my result so i never gonna know about it FOREVER..
Er..
Let me review about my Form 4 and Form 5's life..
I put no effort on study,
I hate add maths, Physics, Chemistry etc etc~
I'm addicted to shopping~
I used all my money to buy clothes, watches, bags and shoes~
OH MY GOSH~
I didnt even put effort to read a book..
I felt bad~
I'm not born to be smart, its just because i'm hardworking~
Okay~
I promise I would put more efforts on study when i come to college~
I PROMISE~
OH GOD, please forgive me and give me a better result for SPM!!


Cant imagine how's my result! Can i just skipped this part of my life?
i really scare i'll bang my head to the wall~
=D
Wish me luck!

1st and 2nd driving lesson!

I've sit for the 1st and 2nd driving lesson~
How was it?!

I think its ok gua~
The uncle is good, he didnt pressure me much..
I'm dumb~
There is alot of incidents happened that make myself felt kinda stupid ^^

1. Dead fire for N times~ i cant even count it ><" especially when it come to the junction!
2. Its damn hot and i sweat like raining~
3. I used the whole "green light" time to make my car move, and when the stupid car finally move, guess what happened? its "red light" again~ O.o damn!
4. I always forget to off my signal light (means it the right signal still ON when i'm driving on a straight road, how dumb)
5. I drove home after 2 hours of driving lesson (my legs felt numb, it makes me felt like no legs)

Conclusion: the clutch its super irritating, agree?

It turns better when come to the 2nd lesson~
The 1st lesson make me felt stupid thou..
I've learn slope and parking this time~

Cant wait for the 3rd, 4th, 5th lesson~
and course~ cant wait to drive my white little kancil~ woo hoooo~
I wanted to decorate it into PINK!!!!!!!!

P/S: there is a zit on my nose, i picit it and leave a scar there~ aiks~ i'm so going to kill somebody~sad~I think its time for facial! Oh my gosh, tell me i'm vain!! ^^V

First time!!!

This is my first time tagged by someone~
hmm.. mayb some of you already bored to read about this tag!
haha~ but what to do~ i'm tagged~~~~


How old were you when you had your first relationship?
When i was form 2,which is 14 years old.. ><" too young? i know~

Are you taken/single ?
Taken by tat dumb dumb coong~

Do you like anyone right now?
i love him!!!! <33

Ever had your heartbroken?
of course, and it havent fully recover yet! damn pain~

Miss anyone right now?
coong coong!!

Who was the last person you sent a text to?
who else? coong larh~

Last person to text you?
Fei sin wor! haha~

Last person you saw?
sad to say, but its my boss! i'm in office now~ T.T

What was the last thing you said to someone?
Good afternoon, its calling from VICVOX here~ ^^

Who is top in your top friends?
her her her + him him him = friendsssssss!

Who do you trust the most in your life?
hmm.. i dare not to trust anyone, even myself! but I can say karxian is trustful!! <3>

Who do you love most?
coong coong u know de hor~ i love U and my sister, kar rao!

Ever been in love?
Maybe I should say i'm always bathed in love! ('',)V lucky me!

Who has hurt you the most?
Her! mostly of know should know who is "SHE"~

Has a tragedy ever happened in your life?
em hm erm hmm!

Are you happy?
if there is a smile on my face, is that consider as happy??

How many good friends do you have?
ohhhh~ alot alot~ of course for the girl that i always call her and talk to her non stop on phone~ wink wink** and the girl that i used to lie on her bed and talk craps then laugh laugh laugh laugh non stop, shes's so so so smart!! and not forgetting my small little one tat now just get a job to promote nescafe at carrefour and kidnapped my cosmetic bag^^, she's cute!!!! etc etc~

Are there some songs you cant listen to because they remind you of someone?
hm hm~ *of course**

Have you ever cheated on a partner?
arrrhh~ haha~ **lalalalalala** skip this!

Ever been cheated on?
dun remind me of that! its hurtful and make me felt stupid!!

Ever been told someone loved you?
he tell me everyday!

Ever told someone you loved them and meant it?
i tell him everyday too!!! meant if of course!! marry me larh faster!!

What is your idea of true love?
true love, say it! and meant it!show it with care and gesture! never end's conversation, surprises, romance and truthful kisses and loving each other's odour maybe i should say addicted and and and of course, you'll never felt bored of loving him~

Do you believe in love at first sight?
yeap!! big size guy which is tall and romantic to me!!!!!!

Do you believe that it is best to have a friendship first then love? It should be...
Tagged:
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4)
5)
6) lazy to tag larh XD.. and mostly of them are tagged ><"

Me without spec!

This is a camwhoring picture of me without spec!! hmm.. was thinking to wear contact lens.. but then majority say i look better with spec, confuse confuse**

look mature without spec??

the face more chubby without the spec??

now is still not the time yet??

or should slim down a few more Kg would look better??^^

i've ask a few of friends, majority said with spec would look younger~

any opinion?

may leave yr comment at the cbox or call me to tell me ur opinion if its too long and you lazy to type it!! haha~

Dream room!!!

Ooorh~~ this is what i wanted so much for life!

A room for myself, which is white and pink in colour~

i'm getting addicted to pink more and more~

mayb you all will say, "this karyan sei bintai so fat her skin colour somemore so dark also not match pink colour one larh!!!"

><"

but i'm lovin' it!!! what to do^^V

can you see the chandalier~ ADORABLE!!!!

how about the pink heart shaped pillow!!!!!!! arh!!!

driving me crazy~

A picture of Wai Kit's bday@ kaki's corner

everyone has oily face!! opps~ stupid flash~^^

~nice memories~

Training for me?

><"

~i'm in office now~

~dont ask me why~

~but my boss gave me training~

~what training??~

~some "tut" company accounting training larh~

~ How i feel??? ~

~alamak~ part timer like me also need training gah?~

~tak paham ni!~

~#$%^&*><"!?~

~cant u just leave me alone, it's SATURDAY!!~

~you know what i mean?~

~SATURDAY = shopping day~

~not working day~

~!COME ON!~

~CAN someone please GET ME OUT OF HERE!!!!!~

all i can do now is awaiting for tomorrow's lunch time with all my beloved sista! cant wait to see you guys!!!~ arwh~ i miss our 8 po gang!!!

wat!?

Looking at the time, it's 3.15pm,
The office's phone rang suddenly,
So, As usual, i pick up the phone~ and here come the conversation with this aunie..

Me: Good Afternoon, Vicvox~

That Auntie: Wei~ Jacky a..?

Me: I'm so sorry to tell you that Jacky is not in, May I know who is on the line?

That Auntie: I'm her Client. (Like I dunoo)

Me: (still replying sopan santun-ly) em, maybe you can call her cell phone?

That Auntie: Orh~ call her hand pon (its hand Phone dum) levermind(its nevermind!!) I just fek this to your office fek, did u got it?(its fax my dear, are you too hungry until you swallow the letter "X"?)

Me: I'm sorry, but there's some technical problem with the machine, could you resend the document?

That Auntie: Orh~ o kay~ your fek nombo is selo-tee-sepen-nai-eik-wan-fy-too-too-sik a? (its 03-79815226 my dear. Oh lord!! how could this company hire this kinda people as telemarketing sales!?)

beh tahan~

笑一笑

中國有些產品上的說明標籤很有智慧，信不信由你以下是一些產品標籤上的說明。

1. Sears吹風機： 睡眠時請勿使用。
(你用到我都唔反對o既!)

2. Dial香皂： 使用說明：如一般香皂使用。
(废话！有肥皂好象洗碗精酱用的吗？)

3. 某飯店提供的浴帽外盒寫著： 適用於一顆頭。
（有人有两颗头的么？）

4. Tesco's Tiramisu點心： (印在盒子底部) 請勿倒置。

5. Marks&Spencer麵包布丁： 本產品加熱後會變熱。
(原來係咁 !我还以为会变冷呢！)

6. Boots兒童咳嗽藥： 2-4歲兒童專用：服用後請勿開車或操作機械。
(好,我會睇住佢!)

7. Nytol安眠藥： 服用後的徵狀：可能會引起嗜睡。 (如果唔嗜睡既話食黎做乜?)

8. 某中國製聖誕節燈泡： 限室內或室外使用。 (不然还有哪里？？)

9. Sainsbury's罐裝花生： 警告--內含花生。
(好驚呀,花生会不会爆炸哒？我掩護你走先!)

10. 美國點心包裝上： 使用方法：打開包裝，吃點心。
(咁有步驟，唔講我都唔識用)

Lunch Time

Having lunch alone is the things i hate the most in my life!!

This really driving me crazy..

So, instead of eating alone in the restaurant, i've planned to da bao and eat in the office..

Today,
i've bought chicken rice for myself!! ( fattening) plus char siew somemoree!!

and brought it back to office and eat while chatting with Hao Ying on MSN^^

listening to classic Soprano's music, and eating chicken rice??

classic music + chicken rice = @#$%^&*&$%

errr.. i think mayb there is some problem with this combination~ ><"